Comparison is an issue that God has significantly highlighted in my life the last few
years. I had never even recognized it until God revealed a life long stronghold in my
life, self hatred. A few weeks after this realization an outpouring of the Holy Spirit began
to touch our community that brought a great deliverance to my life. On the first day of
what’s now known as the IHOPU Student Awakening, God broke the power of self-
hatred over my life. In a matter of hours God began to unravel what twenty-six years
of wrong thinking had wrought. Deliverance is similar to salvation, it is a present reality
and a continual process. Shortly into that process I discovered that one of the key
components of self-hatred is comparison. Comparison can sometimes be healthy,
it reveals areas we can grow in, specifically when we compare ourselves to Jesus.
However, most of the time comparison breeds envy, pride and dissatisfaction with the
way God made us.
Envy and comparison are inseparable twins. If I compare myself with another, there’s
an overwhelming propensity towards discontentment or resentment concerning my own
talent, ability or influence. Comparison is a two way street. We can compare ourselves
with others as a means to put ourselves down or to puff ourselves up. Neither way
is healthy and both are a form of pride. If we compare ourselves with others in false-
humility now, deeming them superior and ourselves inferior, it is a subtle form of pride
that places worth on our own ability and strength. If this comparison is not rectified now,
when the script is flipped and we suddenly find ourselves the recipient of abundant
revelation and great influence, we’ll be guilty of comparison on the opposite side of
the spectrum. “Pride goes before destruction, And a haughty spirit before a fall.” (Prov
16:18) God’s promise to the arrogant throughout scripture should provoke us to terror.
Pride fuels comparison and envy because they are the close cousins of self-sufficiency.
Comparison can be a slap in the face of our Creator. When we compare ourselves to
others in an unhealthy way we are essentially saying, “You did a lousy job God, and
now I’m suffering for it.” Self-pity is one of the byproducts of comparing ourselves with
others. This can equally manifest itself when we match up our ministry calling with our
brother’s ministry. Pride is an attack against the nature of God. When I am prideful
I am saying that my life is my own & I don’t really need God. Pride is lethal. It is a
threat to those around us and to ourselves. It endangers our calling, our very lives and
if unchallenged the eternal destiny of our soul. If I trust in who He is and who He has
made me to be that is true humility. His leadership is perfect. If others are promoted
and I am upset because I was overlooked, it is an insult against God’s leadership. True
humility is knowing that without God I am truly nothing. When we genuinely learn to love
who God created us to be comparison’s grip is broken. Paul told Timothy, “Godliness
with contentment is great gain.” (1 Tim 6:6) Contentment is a difficult feat, but not
impossible. If we are content with what God entrusts to us in a given season, envy will
have few inroads into the soul.
Envy and comparison have suffered a significant decline in my life through God’s work these last few years, but I still have to vigilantly confront thoughts when they turn up. A great way to do this is by exercising thankfulness. In a community where there is a high concentration of talent, anointing and opportunity there are plenty of occasions to confront wrong thoughts. If I choose to be grateful for the season He has placed me in, the conflict He’s allowed me to endure and the talents He’s entrusted to me, it cripples comparison and envy. God creates each of us unique, idiosyncrasies and all. When we find ourselves caught in the battle of comparison and envy we do well to heed the Psalmist example, “I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.” (Psalm 139:14) Praise and the confession of truth about what God says about us will keep us on the road of truth that leads to freedom.